Monday, March 23, 2015
even thou i have shed many tears for my papa bear, i still can't believe that he has left us. my days are filled with his memory. every where i look it is some kind of reminder of him even the smallest things-a hot dog, a deer standing in a field,a classic car,a cold beer, even a marlboro.my love for him was very strong.when he looked into my eyes i could only see love .as i sit here and write this so many memories come flooding back , even tho our life together was a mere 2 years, he should me so much and we did as much as we could. we had so many plans for the future, it still hurts to think about it.i never thought that one person could have so much affect on me. i always thought that i was a strong person but this has taken a toll on me mentally and physically.mark if you are with me you know what this is doing to me. i know that it is not fair to blame you but i do. in a full house i still feel alone. all the comforting isnt helping. my love for you only grows more each passing day as if you were still with me. babes if you are with me, please help me get thru this cuz i cant do it by myself. with all my heart and love karen-mama bear
